Guru's autograph saves Balaram
by Suresvara das
Posted February 23, 2002


I haven't been to Mayapur in 25 years; every day here is blowing my heart and mind to Vaikuntha and back. In New Navadvipa (ISKCON Honolulu) I rededicated myself to the service of Srila Prabhupada; in Navadvipa Dhama I'm getting my heart back. After my divorce, I didn't think I would ever feel love again, but every day Lord Caitanya is flooding me with real love. It's everywhere -- in the devotees, the villagers -- and Jananivas Prabhu says it's because Sri Sri Radha-Madhava are the only Radha-Krsna Deities in the mood of Caitanya Mahaprabhu. Their love flows freely in the Dhama, drowning old agnostics like me in an ocean of cool tears.

I kept bumping into devotee after devotee; some I knew, some I didn't; it didn't seem to matter. The mood here makes nearly everyone approachable; the Golden Dancer does not discriminate as to who is or is not fit to receive His kindness. I want to come back here every year.

Hrimati came to me today to help her keep Balarama, her ox. A misguided businessman is trying to take Balarama and use him to pull tourists around. He doesn't have a proper yoke, though, and doesn't know how to work the ox, either. Hrimati had me draft a letter, informing the businessman that Balarama is legally hers, a gift from the goshalla on Gaura Purnima 2001. Jayapataka Swami signed the letter, which should make the vaisya-bandhu back off.