Chakra Discussions

Denial - Or Acceptance?

by Bhaktin Alex

Posted June 15, 2004

Dear Vaisnavas and Vaisnavis,

I read Rowland Cheatham's piece on denial with considerable interest. Yes, it is true that we as devotees (even the most exalted among us) fall far short in many ways of the standards Srila Prabhupada gave, both in his teachings and through his personal example.

And it's true that devotees often seem reluctant to face these issues. I can understand how we all look as if we are burying our heads in the sand. But one of the reasons for this is fear.

I know for sure that my Guru Maharaja will never fall down. He is the one person in my life who I am 110% certain of. But wouldn't any one of Satsvarupa Maharaja's disciples have said the same thing? Or any one of Vipramukhya Prabhu's? Or Harikesha Prabhu's? Or any one of an almost endless list of disciples of many other ex-gurus.

And I'm sure that His Holiness Tamal Krishna Goswami Maharaja's disciples did not expect to wake up one morning and find that their spiritual master had gone Home.

But, even in Krishna Consciousness, we have to expect the unexpected. And that's painful. When we dedicate ourselves to serving the will of the Supreme Lord rather than our own, we have to accept that things will happen in our lives that we do not understand.

For whatever reason, Satsvarupa Maharaja, Vipramukhya prabhu, et al had some issues on their spiritual paths that were not quite resolved. I don't understand that, but I don't need to. Because I'm not God. I'm not in control.

Srila Prabhupada said that ISKCON will be present on this Earth for the next 10,000 years. So let's not fall apart over every issue that comes along! The process of Krsna consciousness is a joyful steady progression, not a panic over every bump in the road.

That's not burying my head in the sand, that's just accepting the things that I can't change. Why attack the GBC? Just because at worst they're human? Could I do the job of ISKCON administration and management any better than them? Would I want to? No. Absolutely not! So why not just support them, and leave them to do their service, rather than worrying endlessly every time we don't understand something? It only leads to offenses and criticisms.

Your servant
Shyama's Girl