Posted February 9, 2008
Open letter from the heart of Subhangi-devi dasi to the wonderful devotees of the Lord around the world.
All glories, all glories to our Divine and wonderful Guru Maharaja saviour of the whole world, Srila Prabhupada! No not the whole world, the whole universe and beyond. The greatest ocean of pure love and compassion, who is always with us and is 100% going to deliver us to the lotus feet of Sri Krishna and Srimati Radharani.
Please all devotees do not cry for our sweet Ananda Lila, who never truly belonged in this world. She is with her beloved Radha-Shyamasundara and can never suffer again any of the pains and miseries of this world. Krishna has taken her away in a flash, with no prolonged pain.
She was always blessed and so spoilt. She never suffered or was in want of anything in the 17 years (7 +1=8, lucky) of her life. The only thing that ever, from her birth, had any meaning for her was Sri Vrindavan Dhama and Sri Sri Radha Shyamasundara, Sri Sri Krishna-Balarama, Sri Sri Gaura Nitai, Sri Sri Radha-Raman and mostly her faith in Srila Prabhupada. Her devotion to Prabhupada was unwavering. He was her absolute hero (along with her Dad). Now she has attained all of the above and will deliver her Dad as well as whoever loved, protected and served her unconditionally.
We are so sad to not have her personal association any more, but at the same time immensely proud of her and full of prema in our hearts for her which we will drink of its bitter sweet nectar for the rest of our lives. I want to especially thank all the gurukulis worldwide. You are all great souls, rupanuga-vaisnavas, gathered worldwide to purify the planet and preach Krishna's glories and the glories of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu.
I want to thank Sri Sri Radha Govardhanadhari who have been the light of my life since I came to Krishna Consciousness and all of the residents of New Govardhan farm who prayed for Lita to go back to Godhead, all the residents of Vrindavan Dhama who prayed for Lita to go back, everyone worldwide who prayed for her to go back. You really rattled Krishna's cage; you tied His hands and he had to take her. It was your strong prayers which gave her strength.
I'd like to thank all the devotees who were present in the room when she left (05/02/2008=5+2+2+8=17=8 lucky!). Their Kirtan was so powerful and ecstatic that it literally catapulted her soul back to Godhead.
Please if you are in anyway concerned for me, keep sending those memories of Lila via Chakra and e-mail. They are medicine for my heart, and so beautiful (thank you dear Kum Kum dasi, love you). But please do not cryifeast!! Have a whomba stompa Kirtan worldwide!! One devotee has gone back to Krishna! Be happy. Krishna is carrying all my pain for me. All glories to His causeless mercy upon this undeserving soul. His mercy never ceases to amaze.
And lastly, thank you all so much for your outpouring of unconditional and pure love to my family. We will always remember and deeply appreciate it. Just remember that cute little girl who used to run off to the 24 hour Kirtan and dance and twirl in front of Radha Shyamasundar like a gopi, and kick and go blue in the face whenever I would try to take her home.
Now she can dance forever.
Your most fallen servant,