Posted August 23, 2004
Dear Maharaja's and Prabhus,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All Glories to ISKCON Founder Acarya Srila Prabhupada.
Yesterday after a team of doctors reviewed all of my test results, the spokesperson informed me of the need for immediate amputation, chemotherapy, radiation, etc. He also stated that there is a need for another biopsy operation to take out some of the lymph nodes which seem to be also diseased by cancer. They could give no guarantees of the results of the treatment.
I asked if I did not follow through on their plan or did nothing, how long could I expect to live. The doctors reply was six months. In my mind I thought that is long time. Many things can happen in six months. Either I have all of this time to prepare for death or sufficient time to do all that is necessary, physically and spiritually, to turn this whole thing around and come out of it more improved physically and spiritually. It seems that my life has always been about extremes.
Presently I am being considered by NIH to see if I qualify for a very special treatment with some of the best docors in the USA in the field. We have also began to limit our choices to special cancer treatment centers in Mexico, Arizona, New York, Atlanta and India. Once I know exactly where I will go to be treated for some months I will update all of you.
I have a staff of devotee doctors and aides who will be assisting me in making the decisions. I feel all of your prayers will guide us in making the best decisions, which will allow whatever Srila Prabhupada and Krsna want to manifest. For now all I can say is that something extremely supernatural or super extraordinary is going on here.
I do not know what the conclusion will be , but I want to be around to see what it is. Ooops, I guess I will definitely be around since it is happening to me, whatever it is, most definitely it is bigger than myself. I am definitely changing bodies, the question is, "will I be changing both the physical and mental body?"
I feel Srila Prabhupada himself will make the decision.
Yours in the service to Srila Prabhupada
Bhakti Tirtha Swami